It’s hard for me to be all in.
I prefer to hesitate at the edges of the crowd. Checking it out.
Is it safe?
Is it for me?
Will I be stepped on?
Will I be seen, acknowledged, and given the space I need?
I’m not the kind who towers over others.
I’m a diminutive woman of 5’1”.
Not even weighing much.
It’s easy for others to not even see me.
This way of being has made me small, quiet, unobtrusive, maybe too polite...
I find I don’t let others close.
I run at the first sign of trouble.
Okay maybe not the first sign. But I always have an eye on the door. Ready to make a quick escape.
What if I practice being “ALL IN”?
Just to see how it feels.
Uncomfortable and a little constricting, it may allow me to find others in a way that I could truly belong. Be seen, acknowledged.
What does ALL IN look like for you? How could adopting this attitude change things for you? Or are you already practicing it? How is that going?